Lost in a daydream.

I hate uni. There is no longer a group of people whom I really want to see in school anymore. Things weren't like that when I was in primary, secondary or JC. On top of school work, this makes everything worse. Perhaps I am just anti-social by nature. Or am too mean and weird for people to want to befriend me. Everyone just stays within their existing circles. Why am I in pharmacy? Because I like the subject. But I am just different from the rest of them. I dye my hair in multiple colours and wear clothes that may sometimes be unacceptable in their world. But that is how I like to be. I will be very sad if I have to have normal brown hair or wear conservative clothes to school. I want to not care about other people but I really can't seem to do so. I want to fit in to the norm, but that is just too violently against my usual (or unusual) style. Nobody will understand me, because they belong to the other side. And those who are not on the other side, are on the other sides, just no one is on my side. Why.